(Ink brush drawing)
Hidden sages in dark alleys
sitting alone pondering the moon
(Ink brush drawing)
Hidden sages in dark alleys
sitting alone pondering the moon
(Yoda Bobblehead and Taoist Sage Ink drawing by eunsung kim aka me)
“Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.”–Yoda
“To hold, you must first open your hand. Let go.”–Lao Tzu
Dear Friends,
I created another site for creating art in order to keep me sane and away from the hell of fear, depression, self-hate and apathy.
creatingmywayoutofhell.wordpress.com
“Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.” Luke 6:21.
As a boy growing up in the church, the Season of Lent was always a serious time. A time to roll up your sleeves and really delve into your faith, and commit to deepening my faith with God. Somewhere along the way, I picked up message that being a follower of Christ means being austere and serious, I make a sacrifice to give up things that are holding me from fully trusting in God. While, some of the messages I picked up as a child about faith was true; a lot of my journey of deepening my faith in God has been to discard old ideas, and be willing to experience a God, beyond my limited understanding, here and now midst my own joys and sufferings.
I always thought Jesus was so serious, but I now imagine him being someone with profound joy and capacity for laughter that cuts through the heart of the matter. My own experience has been that often the folks that have experienced the most profound suffering and sorrow have a great capacity to love, and to embrace moments of joy when they appear in our lives. When Christ tells us that “Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh;” Jesus is not only speaking to us who grieve and journey through loss, but his blessing includes himself. Jesus knows firsthand what it is like to carry deep sorrow, and pain; we too feel overwhelmed and burdened by the responsibility of life, and walk sometimes with very heavy steps.
However, Jesus kept moving forward, even though he knew where the road would lead him. He continued to do the work of the Father, kept teaching his often thick headed disciples, and kept on loving the people in his life. Jesus touched, healed, laughed, cried, and shared life with the lepers, the forgotten, and despised people of his time and culture.
We do not have to weep, because our journey does not end in the cross. We believe in a Risen Christ, and know in our hearts joyful tears knowing Christ has risen, and our weeping can truly be transformed into joyous laughter. It is hard in the midst of grief to see what lies ahead, but remember friends you are not alone, Jesus who knows your inner most pain walks with you.
Prayer
O Jesus, be with us as we walk through the joys and pains of life. May our weeping be transformed into laughter: a deep knowing laughter of your strength and love. Amen.
Dear Friend,
I know you are lost in your sadness, and your heart is hurting right now. Everything in your bones is telling you that this pain you feel will never go away. I am here with you, and instead of telling you not to wallow in your pain I will simply let you know that you are not alone.
I too know what it’s like to have heartache, but I say that not to lessen your pain or even to say our pain is the same, because it’s not. Each pain and ache is different, and as you travel down the depths of sadness I will be here waiting for you. I pray that a loving God of your understanding travels with you and guide you safely to the world you are trying so hard to be in, even though it feels like you are sleep walking.
Time takes time, and please I hope you do not fight laughter and joy returning to your life, when you start awakening to life again. I thought I would be numb forever, and somehow slowly my heart started remawakening to each day. Sometimes I still cry, but I laugh a lot too. Don’t forget you are not alone, and I’ll be here waiting as you make the journey back home to your heart.
In the Light,
A fellow traveler
First in post it note series.